Tea-Time Therapy

let's fall ill on monday...

2007-06-01T14:47:00.000+05:30

A: :%

D: whats dat?

A: that’s 'er'

D: :% ok

A: DDDDDDDDDD

D: whaaat

tell me

A: this chottu in Asian age

is calling me akka~~!!!

D: ..?

A: I am an akka

awwwwwwwwwww

D: ayyyo

me: am meltinnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg

D: chottu????

ayyyyyyoooooooooo

A: ya small girl

D: what re....

what does she do there?

A: some 3 yrs younger

D: /:) chotttu???

me: same shit I did

D: ah

She does need an akka then

me: er um heehee

D: rite....

not long back we were chotu den

A: 40?

D: what...How many more yrs to go now?

A: till 40?

wait i will get calci

D: /: )

A: um

D: 6

me: what i should divide?

D: 16

er...

whatever

anyway...someday we'll get der no

sigh

A: percentage also is there no

D: we are just so close

A: D..

What’s happening?

now suddenly why u thinking about age?

D: scared

me: about?

D: its just going by

me: not finding a guy?

D: and

I was just reading what I wrote to limp

Fuck all typos too man

A: er

yes

D: I mean. is there anything ANYTHING AT ALL left?

I should look for someone else, eh?

that’s what

Getting old

A: yes

there’s me and the krishnas

and the dog

and the bears

and the money

and some day something fun

D: sniff

What re

A: arrey!

D: weddings upset me man

A: hug hug hug

D: sniff..! hug hug too

A: listen

D: yes

A: take chutti on feb 3

or fall ill

we will go to Goa

D: lol

A: that’s not very encouraging your yes

D: falling ill sounds possible too

Considering the amount of dust surrounding me...

A: can u time it on Feb 3!!!?

and maybe 5 also?? :)

D: / : )

this is what i missed in Dubai...

A: the dust?

D: no. the love.

and the concern

A: oh my god

it was always there

D: :&

/ : )

A: in dubai, kerala, thakurli lower parel

Everywhere

D: well, in dubai i just felt a l’il safer and healthier....guess it doesn’t work long distance

Mad women in our attic

2007-05-23T13:09:00.002+05:30

D: hmm

tch

i din give u that cd

of k's home video

Aren’t you dying to watch it?

Isn’t that what's keeping you from true happiness?

Isn’t that the way to nirvana

Watching it , that is.

A: yes it is

Saw it on the news too

Millions of people have been craving for the cd

tch

i mean

Sigh

D: :D

6:24 PM I’ll give it only to you

bas.

A: ya say

D: the rest of hem might as well go to P.

Don’t ask me why.

say what.

said no already, I’ll give it to you.

A: uh

Sure thanks

D: :D

We just made frenship no

wat are frenz for

A: yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

okie

D: we'll share dabba???

A: (help help crazy woman here)

um yaaaaaa why not

D: u want to give me your homemade sezwan noodles??

A: (police! police! ACB, ATS)

sure!

D: (:P)

A: what a great idea

U know something

D: are you sure....

Why you sweating?

You nervous or something?

A: it goes really well with fresh air

So u have to go out and eat it

nonooooooooo

haaaaaaaan coming

D: fresh air?? mummy asked me to eat it with chai

A: someone is calling meeeee

D: put it in chai and eat

A: have to gooooooooooo

see u soonnnn okkkkkk

D: noooooooo

A: yaya

but eat it out

we jst made frenship

A: ok

D: wait no

A: bye

D: :|

A: door shut, locks in place,

big dog tied too

and and

whole banjara tribe parked outside

oof

D: (got a call. done)

twing...

that’s the bone for the dawg

knock knock

KNOCK KNOCk

aunntyyyyyyyyyyyy

A: eep

D: I’m Ahalya's new frend

A: bhagoooooooooooooooooooo

peeche darwaaze se

haan beta coming

beta

D: aunty open the door and bhaago no...why you running inside your house

open no

A: wait there only na

don’t move beta

D: you mean, i shouldn't climb down the window sill??

ok...i'll wait

You’ll get me a ladder???

A: (damn it where’s the ladder)

No no beta

ehhhh????

D: no need aunty, I’m used to this...i don’t know why, but

A: no i said .. um... ya i said ladder but i meant where’s the sezwan stick

D: all my frens have a bad door lock. they just cant seem to open it

A: beta see a dictir first na

D: so i usually end up climbing in from the balcony

A: doctor

(why hands are shaking???)

beta i think your mummy just called

D: ( they don twat to open the door, tch )

A: u should go home

Too bad

D: mummy? oh she ran away long back.

i don’t know why.

A: oh boy

D: she was beating her chest and tearing her hair and said something about having a monster around

A: opens door carefully

D: I dunno what she was talking about. We live in the same house.

A: shuts again

D: i never saw any monster

A: ummmmm

Oh boy

D: er.....wat aunty..

A: om om om om om om om

D: you need to try just a little more. Now only u opened no...Again... try a little and the door will be open too

Oh, OM is also there?

Cool.

A: actually

D: all of us will play

A: guess what

D: A, Om and myself

A: A isn’t here

D: what?

A: she went to Khazakistan

D: ai, how’s that

A: ya now only she left

D: when?

Now?

Why didn't she tell me?

A: u can still catch up

D: ?

A: if u run

D: we are frens

A: real fast

D: oh ok.

A: in the opposite direction

D: but wait a minute

isn't OM around?

A: i mean in that direction

D: what will Om think

A: he is the driver

D: i think, i'll stay back with Om

A: he took her

D: (lol)

A: he gone 'gone

D: oh...

A: (breathing fast)

D: so ...u are alone???

A: go na beta

D: tch tch

A: run nnnnnnnnnn

no my boyfriend is here

D: aunty, you want me to stay with you?

company sake

A: u understand na beta

how boyfriends are

D: now that a and om left?

A: nono my boy friend is there na

D: oh oh

can I meet him?

A: we are watching desperate housewives

tch

er......

u can meet allllllll of us

D: oh..soon after desperate housewife they show 'the biggest loser wins'

i want to watch too

Can i come in.

A: (sharpening knife)

D: i want to come in

A: yesssss betaaaaaaaaaaaaa

one min

D: aunty whats' that noise?

A: (putting bullets in gun)

D: tch...

A: nothingggggg lalalalalalala

whooshing sounds made by whip being tested

D: aunty i'm getting bored.

A: patassshhhhhh

D: your door is totally screwed up

A: beta don’t go haan

D: and i dont liek the noise coming form inside

A: yes yes

D: the show is dirty.

A: er....

D: i think i shouldn’t watch it

A: yaya

D: i go???

A: testing hammer

on wall

nonoooooooooooooooooooo

Now tho u wait only

D: chal then

tata auntie

A: no no

D: say hello to boy friend

i'll catch you with a and Om

Hop

Skip

Jump

Pluck a flower

la la la

A: opens door slowly

betaaaa??????????

betaaaaA?

D: hop skip jump

A: eek

slam

D: :)

A: locks in place

new dog tied

D: tch...

major fuck up

A: what?

D: to do with work

Fortunately, nobody can screw my happiness for just last week i shot a mail to people concerned about things i require to keep the site updated

A: eh?

D: now teh consultant programmer

A: what happened?

D: screams from the other end for the room...why is it that the new logo isn’t there.

i dint get it.

i had asked the concerned people.

Bastards

Why do they have to scream... whatever.

A: hmmmm

D: cell died

tch

A: dammit!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

tch

D: hm

A: leave now then

D: ya

i'll speak to you laters.

once i get home my cell should be on

chal leaving

leavihgng

uyrgh

Leaving!

What happened to the classy bad words?

2007-05-23T13:08:00.000+05:30

D: so

P is acting very weird.

A: er....

D: she is mighty upset

Before coming to the point , she'll heave and sigh and ....abuse someone, WITHOUT mentioning the name of the Someone...

and u are supposed to guess.

at times i jst sit there.

Place a rock on the chair...as steady and expressionless

At times i start walking towards the door...

At times i join her in the abusing

then she'll ask whom am i abusing.

A: hm good one

D: but mostly i just sit

yes

u don’t want to her her heave sigh and and get abusive.

she doesn’t do a good job of it....actually mostly i don’t like the words she uses

No class

Yes, we are still talking about swear words and abuses

A: oooooooooooh

Sexy

D: what re?

A: words having class

D: they don’t?

A: now that u mention it,

they do.

D: :)

A: eating some kind of snack

D: some kind mane?

A: addictive

D: what is it made of?

A: crunch

D: lets give it a name

A: home made sezwan stick

it says

D: lol

lol

A: wait will make u eat

D: make me?

that bad?

btw, cell dying.

tch....i dunno why i can't charge it everyday

A: why can’t u bring the charger to the office?

D: keep forfeting

A: um

me: forgetting*

yes

Ahalya: sure sure

Of phantom cigarettes, Rolling Stones and Brit-Romantic-poets

2007-05-23T13:06:00.001+05:30

A: u there?

D: yes yes

A: i want to smoke

cigarette

D: u've put this in my head

only diff, I don’t want to smoke phantom cigs

so....shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

A: me neither

D: no talking about cigs

:) not helping the case

A: dammit

D: hmm...

it's just the idea of feeling better after a smoke

A: yes

D: must look damn cool as well.

A: a drink wouldn’t do it the same way

super cool

SUPER cool

jaane de, dum nahin hai

D: and i dunno, if u've noticed , but the ones who smoke get to easily wash their hands off the 'gurly gurl’ tag obsessed with pink and Alanis Morissette

nahi hai

A: noticed too

D: hmm

A: there’s this Rolling Stones song, new one- streets of love

the chorus stays the same, except for the last line,

one line makes me feel very tired

Like a balloon, 2 weeks after the party

That’s why the cig

ello?

Where you went?

D: here only

Uncle came

asking if I can wait till 8

..Go to the nearby coffee shop

have sum coffee

I said, ‘ginger tea’

He said, “Oh damn…that changes everything

A: oi!

D: :|||

A: he taking u??????????????

D: no no

NOOOOOOOOOO

I’m not his type

i am too old for him he thinks

And its not the sour grape shit but i am glad he thinks i am not his type

YOU act like this old woman D

Where’s the romance in your life

romance in the Brit poet- eternal romantic sense

A: um

whre is it D

yeah sure

(lighting 8th cig)

D: where is it? i dunno. i am tired.

Bored.

Now I want it to come to me

i am sick of looking around

(tch tch )

A: and u will do nakhra with it little when it comes?

D: i am scared to do any nakhra, A

A: or straight u will say, "oh good. Zzzzzzzzz"

I know

D: what if its my only chance and i loose it

yaaaaaa

we are old

its ok no

fuck

ya whatever

A: ancient

D: yes

A: crumbling

whatttttttttttttttttttttttttt??????????

D: :::::::::&

nothgin

A: i would rather not ask

D: :)

f's mum calls up every Monday

to ask my mum if somebody came to see me on Sunday

just to rub it in

mum lost it y'day

A: u know next time

D: she screamed

A: she calls

pull uncle close to your chair

D: and dad went and hung up...took the receiver from her hand and hung up

and?

A: N in my office would do this-- make a mmmmmm sound, "come back na A... who are u talking to you" in a sleepy way

D: lol

lol

She doesn’t call me. She calls my mother

A: mum screamed at you?????

D: u in touch with him?

A: what did mum say?

baap re

D: mum screamed at my aunt

and then she came to me..,. sulking...see what all i need to face ...jussst because my daughter is single and her’s is married

A: TCH

BIGGEST TCH

D: I knowwwww

A: sO who is going for coffee/tea???

u???

D: nobody is

He said, wait no till u get the cd. Wait at the coffees shop. Have some coffee."

Like that.

A: he will pay or what?

seedha poochenka

D: he might say yes.

A describes a home and D gets sarcy

2007-05-10T18:48:00.000+05:30

A: sigh
every where i go i am starting again
tired re
time i settled down
##################
thats the fence around my ghar
and ****************************8
thats all the stars in the sky with a ... um... 2 storey building in the horizon
and !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rain falling too
D: y u want rain
A: while _________________ i am sleeping in my big bed
D: will jst make it messy
ah like dat
A: tch
and and and OOOOOOOOOO thats my dinner table
with lotsa garma garam food
ok i am mad
D: i think i am getting old
very old
A: um
u are actually
ok not that old
!
goin for lunch
brb
dont get older
D: wokay
----
D: a guy's father called...wants my pic...my dad only gave him my number
hw cool is dat
A: ummmm
send my pic
A: ;)
D: lol
A: send that pic of u me and krishna in matheran and ask him to choose
he will never bug you again
;)
D: LOL
LOL
lol
i like dat
A: :)
D: his mum told my mum , "i aint sayin dis coz he is my son...but he is very handsome.."
dey dont even want to chek the hrosocpe till dey see my pic
dey wont ever chek it.
A: one sec testing limits of rolling my eyes
D: lol

The Chaiwalah’s den: To boldly go where no chai drinker has gone before

2007-05-06T12:08:00.000+05:30

Hot afternoon. Tapri chai at the corner of a dusty quiet lane. A and D find a place to sit.
D: … And then I left
A: Geez, I was beginning to wonder if that moron would ever get it…

They laugh. Suddenly the shadow of a man looms over them. A snort is heard. They stop laughing. Heads whip upwards to see….

Crowded local. A and D are speaking animatedly to each other. The clickety clack of the train has receded into the background. The various yelps and abuses that their fellow passengers are hurling at each other do not disturb them. A and D chat on. The phone rings...

A: Ello?
Voice: Hi...

Train screeches to a halt…

3 am. A and D whisper to each other over the phone.

A: It is not that he is always there that is worrying me. It is the fact that I think he is smirking at us. I…I can’t whip around my hands any more like a windmill.
D: Yes, I think we need to meet him.
A: Are you sure? He doesn’t know about our real powers. He thinks we only drink tea… Should we…
D: Tomorrow is best. Let’s do it.

Line goes dead ...

And we set off. The Carrot aka The Coffee-Drinking Chaiwalah, a sinister underworld don had been dominating our conversations for quite a while. Ever since one of us revealed to him the existence of our blog, he had sent out his fellow chaiwallahs after us. We no longer felt safe. We felt our tea was drugged. Why else would one of us feel the urge to spill all our secrets to Him? He was giving us gaajar, and we were lulled into a sense of security by his convincing act of innocence (you should try reading his version of events, especially the part where he glosses over the fact that he couldn’t find a single tapri. He thinks he fools everyone with his ‘I am just a blogger, and know nothing about the syndicate of tapris I run, earning me some black money I can spend on cheesy movie tickets’), and one of us started discussing everything with him.

We took care not to go to the same chaiwallas, but no matter where we went, he would know. We would be waiting for a restorative drink at a new chaiwalla, when the chaiwalla’s phone would ring. A quick word and he would stop smiling at us, we would freeze, the chai would come, but we would gulp it down, afraid that one of us was revealing everything to the Chaiwalah.

We decided to corner him in his own den. We donned ordinary clothes, not the sleek black suits we usually wore when making a hit. We saw him across the road. Our cronies, in unmarked vehicles, kept a close watch on us. We pretended to falter while crossing the road while exchanging a complex code of signals with our bodyguards trained in martial arts. They were keeping an eye on us, ready to move in, should we need armed assistance.

Lunch was not good. He kept quiet, watching the television, we had paid the channels a lot of money to keep out the news of raids all over the city on a particular chain of tapris that He lorded over.

He realised nothing. We had him fooled with our act. We took him shopping while the other tapris in his syndicate were razed to the ground. It was a cruel way of mitigating his terrible act, but we had to be ruthless. There were innocent people drinking tea here. He, felt damn sure he had the upper hand. One of us pretended to pull a muscle and had him distracted while the last chaiwalla standing was hauled away.

Coffee? Ha! Ours was laced with our own secret supply of tea. We just came back from an all-night chai-party, celebrating our victory over The Carrot. New tapris will soon come up. We arrive outside and the sweet smell of tea is wafting in the air. Chai, is safe again.

Sowie doodhwaale bhaya ji

2007-05-04T15:53:00.000+05:30

Divya (email)

Shitttttt...he said he'll call me sometime....

Nooooooooooo...don’t.....pls don’t.....!

Its like telling your doodhwala, ‘Bhaiya kalse doodh mat lana...ksi aur ko bola hai
laneko...”’

Oops...sowie...!!

How not to lend a book to Divya

2007-05-03T12:53:00.001+05:30

Divya: i like divine comedy
i want their songs
der so ....:)
dey r so...*
me: i dont think hv heard their songs
Divya: umm
first time i heard gin soaked boy on V....4-5 yrs back
me: oh yaaaaaaaaa
Divya: since den looking...
me: have heard that
frgot that song
Divya: nice songs dey have
me: hmmm
Divya: pursuit of happiness is nice
me: have u heard pet shop boys?
Divya: no
me: :* (that means nice, i like)
me: u shld hear it.. dave matthews band crash into me
see it on pandora
in fact hear anythg by dave matthews band
grace is gone, dreamgirl
and my favourite-- crash into me
Divya: hmm
me: listen to it na
Divya: wait no...
me: feel like i am smoking, when i listen to it, sorta like a exhale song
Divya: takes time to switch...nd pandora wont play exactly that song...
me: or big glass of tea/brandy
ah...
Gin Blossoms -- Hey Jealousy
Sorry i know i get hyper abt songs
Divya: made two stations with diff songs of dave m b....
playing nythgin but thier songs
me: :D

Divya: EVRYTHGIN BUT DMB
me: HUH..
oh how sad
anyway...
Divya: btu teh songs are quite neat
me: i have good collection
get for u on sunday
yes
Divya: :)
yess
can u get sumthgin else as well
:&
:B
:K
u mst waitign to knw wat
so...umm
ny one of mc call smitth
i've read kalahari typing school
me: !!!
what!
a book?
purchased with money?
that also mccall smith u want?
agatha christie wont do what?
Divya: ur freind only no
/:)
me: who said
yaya
Divya: aaila
smith is no longer ur friend?
me: all natak u will do now
!!!
Divya: :|
me: oh ho
Divya: tch...inturn i'll give u ur vikram seth back
(:&)
me: i dont want it no more
boring it is
Divya: damn
um...u want
wat u want
me: what u have>?
Divya: i dont wat ALL i have..:D
u see wat i have..
wenu come home
me: hmmm
deal...

of besht friends...

2007-05-02T12:47:00.000+05:30

Divya (email)

Things are never quite as scary when you've got a best friend.
Calvin:

From wisdom tooth to pedicure

2007-05-02T12:45:00.000+05:30

Divya (email)

Horrible toothache. Could have done without 'horrible'. Never heard of
a pleasant ache …so there
it’s the darned wisdom tooth ....whoever said I could do with some
wisdom....i look like a miffed dog.....really, really pissed off...really
really messed up...

mummy yelled at me for something very silly....more so, ‘coz she
couldn’t yell at me for saying no to a nice proposal, from a nice ol'
boi, old mane OLD, ok. She is dying to say that I’ll never get
married. I am not dying to get married anyway. At least not to
someone i would have addressed as bade bhaiyya on a normal day.
:( What ahalya....where d fuck is it al going...just dying to leave
this place...nothing wrong with the place…just sum people. But I cannot shut
them up for life.

dat wolman keeps on repeating that thing the astrologer said. its not
like I am not trying hard to keep it off my mind...but every other day
she'll tell me how freaking unlucky i am. "So ma, why are you bothered...?"
...arrey, how will I not be bothered…what do i tell all these people, y is
my daughter not married....or why is she sitting at home warming
chairs....huh huh..??”

Please tell me its the tooth ache that’s driving me nuts...

7 long days I don’t message U, neither does he. Finally when he does, he
says..."its M’s b'dy today". PERIOD. So what the fuck do i do
man...??? i am sic of calling up his friends on their b'days an
anniversaries...!

It’s the tooth ache ahalya, it is the tooth ache!

Ahalya (email)

Actually it is the toothache.

It would be lovely to get away from these people who make us miserable, but u cant get away permanently... get the difference. Even if u go to Dubai do not imagine that u would have gotten away from here...only from her constant bullying

Besides U is U... he isn’t mean to you... he just is...and I think that is wrong

i think everyone should change some annoying things just so that they don’t drive their girlfriend to suicide....

But he should want to change no... if he doesn’t care whether u don’t message him then well he doesn’t care

Don’t worry girl just get busy and don’t think about this i know that it’s easy to say and hard to do but that’s coz u at home

Right?

How’s the driving class

Divya (Email)

It’s been just two days since the class...and so far so good types. Its
quite simple come to think of it...u can get done with the basics in a
day. Provided u r left alone in an empty ground....devoid of people,
manholes/potholes, trees, poles, dogs, and other people with a learners
license driving alongside...!
Don’t see how i can get busy being here....
Got all depressing books around.. ‘A map for lost lovers’. roll roll
roll my eyes...
what’s the POA for morw? Am I coming to your place? Don’t have to....if u got
plans. As serious as I can get with a toothache...! I’m just gonna be in a
rotten mood...atleast till I get a lil wiser!

You can come down to Dubai. Tickets wont cost that much and visa can be
easily arranged. Take a break and come to Dubai. I know its not sum
place u are dying to go to...still....

cant read HHGG...too many memories...
cant read half the books i have ..coz someone gave it to me...and
someone gave it to me coz i was dying to read them.

What will i do once he gets married?
Toothache doesn’t kill. Damn it.

Ahalya (email)

DIVYA SLAP SLAP

SLAP SLAP SLAP SLAP SLAP SLAP

i typed each SLAP didn’t copy paste it

Come home trow. Seriously. Me doing nothing after guitar class wanted to clean up the kitchen but YOU CAN HELP and that isn’t a request!!!!

Was thinking about going for a pedicure? What say wanna do it together? Near my place

100 bucks?

get ready to be at my place till at least 6 if u coming after 12

will call u working on an article

Divya (email)

Sounds good. But i aint doing y pedicure....i refuse to take of my
socks. i'll sit there with u...

A's response (in pink) to K's mail to D

2007-05-01T21:34:00.000+05:30

This is a response to a mail that D forwarded to A...
A had to be gentle but firm with what she felt D couldn't read between the lines...

Ahalya Naidu (email)

My dear Divya Nair, I read the mail again, like an editor looking for a lawsuit.

dudette (...FINE FINE....ITS NORMAL TO USE SUCH WORDS THESE DAYS), whrs u...its almost 3 u know..i was arnd...M wanted to talk to u...i dint encourage (HM, HAVE U SPOKEN WITH THIS M CHAP BEFORE?)...partly coz i havta tell u first...anyways, u dont havta talk...he thinks i am not marrying anyone coz i'm in love wid u..so he was sorta cross examining me....wat my intentions are nd (READ THE NEXT BIT CAREFULLY, ESP. WHY AM 'I' NOT 'd' BUT 'I') why am I to make anything outta d relationship...its hard to explain wats our relationship is to each oder...i am not sure i know it myself. hes worried that i am putting off my marriage way too long...seems he doesnt like the idea of me marrying after 30...i dont havta, but i will, mostly (how nice, just not with you????). may be i shud stop pretending nd jst get on wid it..(it? what it? marriage? or you?).i dont know. my heads too mesd up i wish i cant think so much nd i dont think so much... anyways, i put off the question...i told him that i dont care wat he thinks...ur d closest anyone has come to talking like i do...nd it matters to me...i told him how u extensively use fuker nd bastard... nnd how i can relate to ur abuse. (masochist)..thats not a good reason to talk to u..i knowww....its a good reason not to stop talking to u tho...thats all it matters, doesnt it. ",

i dont know. u dont havta talk to him...nevermind all this...i jst mentioned (this is called mentioning???)coz i JUST ended the chat...u shud know...no actually u neednt...but (u sed to do the 'sh' sound to sound cute, it was pathetic, u do it too i've noticed, but tis just a time saving face saving cute making weapon nothing else, and he wrting it!!!not even saying it uno!!)) i told u...this is wat goes arnd...nd there wil be raised eye brows...i am sure ahal has some for u...well i think ahal has some for u...tho u dont blackmail me wid wat she says... (no comments)

considering wat kinda person i am.(i have 2 guesses)..its amazing that i like u.(now, what does that mean, why amazing???)
..nd like u much i do...oh well wat the hell...ur going to be mesd up in ur head wid all this...sorry abt that...if u can, jst ignore...i will. i can. (i will???i can??? whatever...D. please he very very mad)
>:D<>..sempiternal...stay put dame...nd nite nite too...gone.(really?)

cute guy, dirty green tee and orange dupatta

2007-05-01T21:33:00.000+05:30

Divya (email)

wats rong with me. waaaaaaaaaaaat. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. woke up at 9:35...brushed, washed my face ( yes....i dint take a bath:)) had milk ,put on my slippers, and left....that top u got for urslf, the blue one, i have a similar in dirty green. i wear it at home ....basically came to work in pajamas. i swear. I WORE PAJAMAS TO WORK. i was too late. i had to get done with that write up i was talkign abt and i was LATE.
took an auto to ofice.
a guy....cldnt get any more sexy, came down to meet me., bugger is a client.:((:((:((. wat timing ahalya. waaaaaaaaaaaaat. and it was cold so i had medha's orange dupatta wrapped around me. he cldnt talk to me properly he was so distracted...and i , .....sigh...ahalya.......:((. wanu go home and die. Of all the days....!!!!

todays forecast: love blooms in ur life

2007-05-01T20:49:00.000+05:30

Ahalya (email)
ok so i read the horoscope and was a little worrie and so i called up my sis
whose job is to comfort me right?
and she has well forgotten what its like to talk to me when am convinced somethg bad might happen
so well....
am pissed
and since u started liking the song i started thinking abt it too
which hasnt helped

Divya (email)
...and what did the horoscope say?

Ahalya (email)
the horoscope said that i would be accident prone...

Divya (email)
one day this horroscope of mine said.."romancce is going to bloom in your life...". this was 4 years back. still waiting....

A really optimistic pessismist

2007-05-01T20:04:00.000+05:30

A to D
nothing very great was accomplished by a realist

so ha...

D in response...
...and for that matter an optimist or a pessimist!

to that A said...
oh puh leease, why did u say that? huh? u just had to i bet, but did u really mean it and if u did then why? really?

and D had to explain with ....
Really?
well here is why....once upon a time i tried being a pessimst (mostly not by choice...) . they said that's the reason i aint heading nowhere. so we look around and the other pleasant option seemed to be the ever-positive ( and shtuuupid )-optimist....!
ah.....what a blow it was every time things messed up....people behaved like assholes and ... and ...i dunno, but they just walked away like it was in fashion to do so.

the only other option left is to be a realist. if nothing...u can always feel better about always knowing that "it was neevr meant to be." Nothing is or was (meant to be)! Things fuck up...and u knew that it would...u were jst kidding yourself. By you i mean i, me, you, whoever ever talked him'/ herself into beliveing that things will be just fine.

unless ofcourse you resign yourslf into feeling better about the fact that u r not the only one feeling like shit ....! then its a totally different ball game.

Phew.... u got me all geared up woman....! Any thing else u wanted to know...any more venom you want me to spew in the form of gyan???

(that line jst reminded me of krishna and his freaking philosophy of being happy with whatever fuck u have. What if all u have is all that u never wanted...and wat u want is sumthing u are never going to get?

Jan 2006

2007-05-01T20:02:00.001+05:30

divya (email) :
Thinking of running away. To b'lore probably. Why b'lore? Well, why any place. So the actual question is why runaway? Just.
Now tell me how feasible is it? I need to know a person there. And I think i do. But just in case, i need a back up. I am thinking of talking to J. Yup. I am abso serious when i said i wanted to runaway, else I wouldn’t think of talking to her, would i!
First, where do i live?
2nd, a job ...a job that pays enough for my sustenance.
Where do i get a job, last heard they were selling one a paise.
Do I have a good reason to runaway? I seriously don’t know if i do. i am just a lot mad at ppl around ( aka family). Bored with doing what dey want/ed me to. Scared that i might go on doing that.
I don’t know if this is the rite thing to do. This is definitely not the safe thing to do.
Completely losing it.
I know for a fact that I’ll manage to get sum job. i just need to o something.
There are days when mum says..."so what if the guy is working fro a clearing agents firm...we have the money no."
At times she says..."so what if he is 32...its hardly an age.."
And the worst ( i bet she can come up with something worse, but as of now...this sis it) "so what if he's just passed hi s12th, he has a job ...he's done his computers." ouch!! What does she mean by "done his computers". swati has done her computers, so has her elder sis. Both are Data entry operators.
What’s so wrong with me that she is getting so desp. Probably, one a gazillion chances is that there is actually nothing wrong with me. just in case!
So is running away the sole solution? Well...its not going to be rosy, i know. its not even going to be the bleakest shade of pink. But i never wanted it to be pink. Gray was anyway my colour.

Ahalya replies:
guess what? J is thinking abt running back....
but u can call her. but why call her?????????
my cousins work there just let me know where u want to live for that first find a job.
but wait...houses are expensive, the job w\u get will have to cover the rent
rent is abt 3.500
so um...
why not pune?
i know its close not too close...or is it.
try both these places
i agree u have to leave ur home
and running away may be just what u need
actually pune is safer
so i heard
i know ppl there
i could get some info abt jobs..remmeber H?
she lived there for 2 yrs as paying guest
so i'll find that out
but first look for a job...ok?
and sont settle for soemthg stupid
pls pls pls think abt what u want to do
or at least tell in the interview what YOU expect
it helps......
love you
p.s. i havent found a colour

Divya replies:
well, did smirk at myslf, dint really laugh.
have been lookijg fro jobs in b'lore. applying left , right and centre. just wondering , if and when i ge tthe call letter for an interviw, what am i supposed to say. i think, fro a job in b'lore, i need to be in b'lore. interview and shit like that.
lemme know anywayz, wats the scene like. pune /b'lore. i thot of b'lore coz even i happen to know sum ppl frm XIC. so thot, i mtie not be all by myslf there. issue is i was never the social being...excpet the smile that i painfully gave awy, i have never been very bum -chum with ny of dem. nywaz, lets see.

a random line froma random mail to A

2007-05-01T20:01:00.000+05:30

...some day i wanna look like a complete woman. Raymond ka ad type nahi. As in...oh chuck it man...i dont even know what i meant.

Jul 2005

2007-05-01T19:54:00.000+05:30

Divya (email wrote) :
just tried impressing a guy...fro half a minute...now i'll feel like shit for the next 20 yrs...hopefully only for the nxt 20 yrs..!!

Ahalya (replies):

WELL WELL WELL
WHAT HAVE WE LEARNT ABT NOT IMPRESSING MEN??????
NOTHING...
HMMM
DIVYA WE NEED TO BRAINWASH YOU AGAIN.
MEN NOT IMPORTANT
CUTE MEN VERY MUCH NOT IMPORTANT
CUTE SENSITIVE MEN DESERVE TO GO TO H***
WE HAVE TO BE IMPRESSED SINCE WE ARE HIGHER ON THE SCALE

MORE WISDOM WILL FOLLOW AS SOON AS I STOP STARING AT THE PHONE WAITING FOR IT TO RING.....

A to D to A to D

2007-05-01T19:52:00.000+05:30

2:18 PM Divya: jst got my press card
2:19 PM i look like i jst got done with letching at sumone...
got that satisfied....hoping for more, look on my face
Ahalya: oh tht look,
will get mine tomorrow
i am sporting the i dont kow anything i am a virgin, ravish me look
Divya: thats fast
lol
lol
lol
2:20 PM u mean thats the look u were hoping for...
Ahalya: divya its very difficult to chat and look busy at work
Divya: i know i know...
Ahalya: oh yes thats the look alright
Divya: go ahead..
Ahalya: 23 years am good at it by now
Divya: i shld be around...pinge when ever..
2:21 PM jst that the rite ones dont seem to get the look, eh!?
Ahalya: tell me abt it
when i gave him the look he asked why are u cryin
lol
Divya: :P
2:22 PM awwwww
the aw..was .."ayyoo..so sad aww..
not the ...aww so cute...aww
Ahalya: thanks
so no work?
2:24 PM Divya: nope
:)
2:25 PM was doing some reasearch for that school ka artcile i was talking about.
wen u going for the book realease?
2:26 PM Ahalya: 6 pm
with phtographer
listen to this
k no cant type
its abt work if they read over my shlder me dead
2:27 PM what else
Divya: write...
i meant , right..
2:29 PM what else..nothing...P called...
did i tell u
he's moved to Chennai for his MBA...Great Lakes.
called to see if i'l be aruond this weekend.
i wonder why...
Ahalya: the Madras guy
Divya: blink blink
2:30 PM Ahalya: may be he has tickets to a art exhibition
or some sort of exhibition
hahah
2:31 PM Divya: yes ahalya...
2:32 PM exhibiting his talent...
geez i dont believe i jst said that
can we pretend like i dint..
2:36 PM Ahalya: :)
2:38 PM Divya: listen..laters..
one comp ...two ppl..
Ahalya: ok i am keeping window open... leaving at 6
2:39 PM Divya: ok

Feb 2005

2007-05-01T19:44:00.000+05:30

Ahalya (email) :
dear divya,
its been too long i know. its partly because i've been too busy and too tired and mostly very numb. this letter is going to be all about me and me so sit back, this willt ake a while. C got a cellphone, on his birthday, and sent me rather steamy messages. in retrospect, i wasnt really feeling romantic, but how could i ignore him when he was in a good mood, so against my better judgement and that of the whole world, i began sms ing too. yes i know. i know. hm, yes you have told me and yes i had promised. and yes i feel sorry for myself and angry at myself and i try not to remeber what i wrote and i worry that i have saved all the messages on my phone, in a special folder and that i may someday have to delete it.thie thing is this, he told me that his mum is goin to start looking for girls for him frm may. not to eat, u silly, to marry, yes you read it right and i dont know why i wasnt expecting it. you know i really wasnt expecting it. seriously, anyway, so in that spilt second before i could edit what i felt, which was horrible, used etc. i said' C i cant listen to thsi today' why did i say 'today'? i will come to that in a while. anyway, i was thinking how could he say all of these romantic things to me and be totally unconcerned abt gettng married to someone else. genius arent i? took me just a split seconds and 4 years to figure this out. hm.so i hung up on him, yes u read that right, and i didnt take his calls later either. it wasnt really that difficult and brave a deed as i make it out to be anyway, since he only called twice and even then just let it ring 4-5 times and didnt even bother using his brand new sexy cellphone to send me a consoling message.
it did not strike me then, i just went on crying and making my cold worse, by the way, i had the flu during the weekend which is why i coudnt cal, didnt have the strenght to call.and i cried and wailed and hollered and cursed.about that 'today' bit, this is where it gets intersting. my aunt got us a lemon and some kumkum from a temple. now u know what this emans, dont you, drink this and ur prayers will be answered, well me and sis didnt want to touch that thing because hey, who knows what these ppl prayed for and what if we did not agree with what they think is good for us, u get it right. so my sis ran off and i was cornered in the kitchen by darling mum and dad who refused to let me move until i sipped it, it was a strange scene divya, me cowering in the corner of our messy kitchen, my parents aghast that i wasnt obeying them and whats worse them making encouraging sounds to make me drink it and all the while that dreaded mug thrust on me and me as usual imagining all sorts of unhappy consequences.
whats to say, as you could expect i had one drop of lemon in my mouth and i scurried off. to a temple.
i know what ur thinking,
is this the ahalya i know.
why is she acting like a telugu sopa opera actress with a script. i know. i just felt scared. i never feel thjings are in my hand anyway, and i know now why i feel that. but i just....ok.
and things at home have been extra weird bbecause now my mum wants to show my aunt that we are a model happy family, how can she even try while she continues to nag and cry???????????????????????????????
so me and my sis try to put on our act for them, uno in which we pull each other's legs, tease each other and fight to entertain them, its very tiring.
so my dad tries to stop my mum from whing too much, which of course makes her even more angry and when she complins which is quite ususal my aunt tells her to stop acting like a kid.
so when erics sms es started coming i just felt glad that i had romance in my life u know.anyway.
so all this happend and the ppl at work think i am one of those ppl who is stuck to the cell phone all the time. oh and yes before i forget i gave V my number. and he kept calling.
ah and of course the next day i told C 'How I Feel' and that did not go down well. i cried and blubbered and said Everyhting and he remained Silent, and i wondered was i overreacting, and i said i was Sorry, hm, i KNOW.
and then he said Fine and he hung up and i sent him soppy messages, yes i did.
and i called him twice and he said rude things hat did i expect.bas thats it.
he is returning a book i gave him from my library on saturday. i also have to meet saee on saturday. she is doing the same silly things as me!!!what a surprise!
and on sunday i am going bird watching at some pond 7 kn from dombivli. with some ppl at work and tthe members of bnhs.
N is in town and today is APs bday..dot dot dot
havent touched japanese or my MA stuff and abandoned knitting too. reading a funny book and falling asleep immediately, get weird dreams and wake up alert for the next day. i dont know why. you would think the enthusiasm would have faded by now.
dont know what to do about v, everyhting is messed up. i just want to shut off my phone and wait till everybody gets tired of calling and goes away and ignores me royally whn i come back.
or so it seems.
listen if you want to talk about anything, anyone, just start ok, i know his phone thing is bad, so wrtite alright, everyhting coems out then, wothout interruptions, and dontb edit anythign ....
waiting in my dusty little cottage,

Being a mother

2007-05-01T19:13:00.000+05:30

Aug 2004
Ahalya : (email)

Hate your phone, sigh
called C, no one home, or so he wants me to believe or maybe he really does want me to believe that he is there but purposely avoiding my calls.
why this happend?
why me?
bad q i know but i can tstop myself from thinking these things so cant stop myself from saying these things to you.
he is stupid na, leaving ME. very very stupid na. he will come back you'll see. sooner or later he will need that dog like devotion i would give him.
idiot!
me not him.
kill me no....
quickly dont want to suffer physically as well.
and now i hate asking this but how are you, hate asking this because you may think i have suddenly remembered to ask you which is not the truth, infact now whenener i call you i think what if he is calling her and hwe is hearing this msg.

if you understood that either i am mad or we both are. or we both are extremely beautifula nd sensitive human beings
...
ok i think the first portion is us.

call me, write to me or at least scream out what you want to say...chee
see there i go being stupid again, is it any wonder then that men...ok wont complete that sentencfe.
i mailed V, it has been 24 hours and he hasnt replied.
i am not flirting relaly, i just want that friend that saee has, uno that freind guy...
how is T, i could just go on, any news form hike?
really i am not flirting with V
really
swear on my bear.
a terribly image just flashed in fron t of my eyes,
or at least in front of the left eye.
i think i may not get married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gasp
did i tell you abt this dream i had, in which there is this baby girl, very cute huge eyes and PINK cheeks and i am carrying her and she is holding onto me like a baby monkey, i dont even have to hold her she is clingin to me so firmly anyway, i am just walking around the house and doin normal things and i go to the kitchen to shut off the cooker and i place a hand on her head so the steam doest bother her and she is busy eating/playing with somethg and i am talking to her pathietic kiddy stuff i keep asking her 'who are you' whi are you...
and she loks into my eyes and says
i am HBO
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i laugh
and then she says calmly
i am ganpati
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
what to do now?

Crash, boom, bang...

2007-04-30T15:10:00.001+05:30

And we arrived.